♥2011年9月14日星期三
most of all i will be blogging when i feel lost,
or .... irritated?
and finally i gonna finish wad i chose to study,
n i dont feel wanted to continue on this industry,
since, i feel its time to learn to be a woman,
i always tot that i m already 21,
i m fully grown,
but yet i duno how to settle problem by myself,
i duno how to take care of myself,
alot of things that i duno how to do,
useless me.
what i can do is just running away from problem,
and acting i m tough than other girl,
bcoz pretty girls always have guys stick up for them,
and since i was 10, i knew that i m not pretty as other does.
the person who knows me well will realize that,
i m not tough.
i love u, but we r not meant to be tgt.
i like u, but u re not as good as i aspect.
i crushed on u, but we r ppl from different world.
Since when i m not me anymore,
but nvm,
i dont need to be me anymore~
My World My Life
上午2:55
♥2011年9月10日星期六
full of dust here, **cough**
since a long long time i dint visit here,
too busy with everything,
so fast already 2 n a half yrs,
cant bliv dat i m able to a.k.a almost done with my internship,
a new life is waiting 4 me,
its time to force myself
to learn driving,
make up,
wearing heels n dresses,
i ma woman, so ~
be like a woman.
again i m running away from the reality,
dun feel like goin to work...
every1 else are getting mature than me,
independent than me but i m still so soft...
useless.
still i m not thin yet,
hate this!
same old me...
but i know,
i m not pure anymore,
cant be like a kid,
when getting older,
naive = gone.
how good if everything can be simple,
but as i growing older,
everything chg to be, not simple anymore.
i m trying so hard,
to act like i m so tough,
to act like i m not afraid of anything,
but who knows?
i dun wan to be independent,
i dun wan to be tough,
i just wan some1 to take care of me =(
i wan to be like some other girls,
just 1 status, every1 will be attention bout it,
just manja with guys den they will like dying to serve u,
y i m not like then?
why?
what m i suppose to do next?
My World My Life
上午2:19